Modern Girl

“He walks out the door, she’s a modern girl”

Purple pages
and overcoats -
Smell of rain
- and burnt out smokes
emptiness
and stiff embrace
Fervently try to place
Hands instocks,
A cage.

Greying water,
Still,
lifeless -
Meaty steak kill
burning fire drift
- Silence
Rift.
Waiting for a kiss,
That will no longer quite fit
Cinderella, wish.

Resentment,
Loathing,
Incomprehension -
life bred by television
- Filling
Not winning,
hours
Smothering,
inside the pillow
Inside reality -
Dreaming
of Sanity – we shall never win.

I really do wish that you could give me everything I want.

you are an angel,
i'll be your princess
we'll be perfectly happy
in my turreted fortress.

i always wanted to be a princess, some people almost seem to be royal though they're so beautiful. I love these images from Vogue a while ago, the whole shoot was beautiful & it was where I discovered Sasha Pivovarova for the first time - she is a princess.

I love the rocking horse,
it's lovely.
& the clothes for the shoot were brilliant too, i loved the sheer and gathered pleat skirt and made one similar for my sixteenth last year

Do any romantic men exist?

No. If they cannot for me, they cannot for you. Men are missing a few genes - a few you’s and me’s. They simply, cannot & will not understand what we want. Apart from Chuck Bass.

This is what we all want – good old fashioned spice. Then we’re having a good time. Here are some tips, listen up boys

1. A text is not romantic, unless it is from the heart

2. Cliches make me sick - I am not a baby, 'love' explains nothing

And

3. However much attention you give me, I will always want more.

To be fair to the humble lad, television and the words of others have distorted my mind. I do expect the unrealistic, I do expect too much & this I blame entirely on David Bowie’s valentine evenings and commercial love’s expectations. I want my happy ever ever after.

Give it to me.

So what can we disenchanted women do? Rise up.

That was a joke.

But seriously, how can you force a man into doing something he seems unable to process? First, we must ensure we are romantic – hypocrisy is the greatest sin. Secondly, reminders of our expectations must be slipped into conversation & Thirdly we must stop watching romantic comedies.